Life After Sludge Demonic Possession — Connecting To Emotion
The “Life After Sludge Demonic Possession” posts I have, both on this platform and our Spartanite Blog, are a multitude in education for people who are not familiar with the nature of evil djinn and what they can do to a person in a lifetime. This is sort of like a public survivor documentary for me and for those who wish to understand where my Spartanite Strength originates from.
As a survivor of 4 djinn sent to kill me by select relatives on my estranged Father’s side, the same way my Father sadly passed away, breaking free from this prison — has been a never ending nightmare but it is with great joy and pride, that I now serve others from this horrific abuse and pain.
I spent the last week feeling emotions I haven’t felt before. I felt all types of strange things come up, and as I was walking to the supermarket, instead of dissociation, I felt depersonalization. Like someone else was Nadia, instead of me. I kept listening and just realised I needed to integrate parts of myself that the Djinn wiped out when they were taken out of me.
There are often days where I still struggle to remember parts of my life, parts that during an exorcism, are completely wiped out. When Djinn are forcefully pulled out of you, they do a memory wipe, which means I struggle to remember things in linear fashion before the age of 25. I have a brief recollection, that I used to run a spa business, and other things happened, and that my father died many years back through djinn possession himself, but more than that feels hazy, and I feel sleepy when I remember it.
I felt relieved when I felt like I wanted to dress up to see my friend who lives up the road from me. I wore a nice pair of earrings, some nice red lipstick, and made the effort with my clothes. I realised I have come a long way from processing CPTSD trauma that used to leave me mentally blanks for months on end, barely being able to process, even the smallest of details. With the power of my Spiritual Court, massive thanks to Belvia and Clauneck to kept getting me to do “mental weightlifting”, I can now function fully and run Spartanite properly without any relapses into mental health struggles.
It is impossible to describe it in words, for you must have lived this pain to know it and be acquainted it, but I know if I can heal after years of pain, suffering, abuse, trauma, and torture — -more can heal in this world, equally.
Be patient, be kind to yourself and Love God, above all :)
