“Je Suis Grand….et…”
And realistically, the sentence can stop there. “I am grand, and…”. And people come to realise no matter how many cute mind control memes and “self-help books” they read, they NEVER feel WORTHY of anything good. So they put up with shitty friends, relationships, relatives who should have their photos placed next to the “blood sucking leech” in the dictionary, bosses who wipe their feet on them, not to mention people who drain the life out of you, at a romantic level.
We severely LACK that GPS direction I often speak about with candor and boldness in all of my videos and the predominance of Sparty blogs. Creating your own life, is a feat akin to walking the Niagara, blindfolded — with little support. This world encourages you to bend to it and SPARTANITE — DEMONSTRATES how the WORLD BENDS TO YOU. When I was younger, all my pain sourced from being PRIMAL in a world that encouraged me to censor my very OWN lioness thoughts to appease into a herd animal. I am not a sheep, and so I don’t live sheep lifestyles, elite or pedestrian.
Now that we have shined that focus back on you, we are at that juxtaposition of asking you “how do you wish to live?”. Yes, we all have those we love in our responsibilities, however why has no one taught us to be ourselves?
Being yourself is NOT profitable. You don’t profit conglomerates and hungry desperate corporations, predators as they are — to feed off you. You become the APEX PREDATOR, THE ONE WHO DESTROYS THE DESTROYERS OF HUMANITY 🙂
The Cabal, since birth; have trained the enmasse to submit their power to THEM — VAMPIRIZING your FINANCIAL and BLOODLINE power, leaving you consistent wreck of Self. It takes great courage to summon the Inner Lion/Lioness that resides within you, that inner beast, to possess violence and finesse in a daring and elegant fashion.
To create Sovereignty, means that you are free of ownership, rule, and, control. This is only a dream for most, as it was once for me. Why? Most people come from controlling, and emotionally abusive families. Dig deeper and people start talking about those dark ugly things that THEY think don’t affect them, and yet Spartanite is PLUTONIAN in nature. We go to your very core. Most people have been embalmed into a set of relations that have never truly supported or loved them, alas “the blood is thicker than water” springs to mind. The COVENANT of blood is thicker, not the blood itself. So we learn as children, we were never loved or truly wanted — some out of deliberation, some out of unconscious neglect.
This causes what people often describe as LOW SELF ESTEEM. Esteem is your level of what you FEEL YOU DESERVE.
Most people do not believe they deserve much, hence that MUCH is ALWAYS out of REACH for them. They can never find it inside themselves to shoot higher because people have been cheated of LOVE and SUPPORT from the very family(ies) that should have provided it for them. How on EARTH can you feel like you are worthy of anything, after all the neglect, trauma, heartache, bullying, and, devastating remarks and treatment 24/7? My heart is truly with people for all they have endured and suffered through 🙁
I have spoken about this many times in my YouTube videos. Low esteem is TOUGH to detect by yourself and EASY to spot by the trained eye. Many people attention seek due to low esteem. Been there, done it. I have never judged someone for doing this, because I FULLY understand the emotional pain they are, in. I desperately desired love, comfort, and, validation from my family, and especially from toxic and manipulative men (romantically) when I was much younger. as a replacement. I received it from neither. I write this from a place of healed solace to know the ONLY person who can validate me, is MYSELF. Possessing FIRM security in my sense of Self, allows me to causally demonstrate what healthy living looks like to others today, a dream the younger version of Nadia and MILLIONS globally, can only desire to be.
You’re trained to CHASE AND LOOK EXTERNALLY.
You desperately want to be validated and celebrated, to finally feel loved, precious, and, special to SOMEONE. We atypically tend to mistake this for romantic partnership. This couldn’t be further from the truth. Many people are afraid to be seen for THEIR OWN SELF, because to be seen for their own Self often means ridicule, mockery, and, rejection.
And so I created an ODE for you read, indulge, and, journal on 🙂
The COURAGE to be UNAPOLOGETICALLY YOU. A YOU NO ONE CAN STEAL, TAKE AWAY, OR BREAK
To be a caste breaker.
A paradigm breaker.
Once upon a time, I wondered…
Can I sign my name on something that will PERMANENTLY disown me from polite society? Horrify? Enrage people? Scare them? Make them question my morality and judgement? Make them think I am lawless, godless, moral-less and even evil…even when I love God dearly and will stand for Justice and Truth?
Do I have the courage to move ahead even when people gossip and whisper about me?
Do I have the courage to be a SPARTANITE? A WOMAN WHO PROUDLY STANDS AS A TEMPESTOUS STORM IN A WORLD FILLED WITH OBEDIENCE AND APPROVAL.
It takes courage. It takes boldness. It takes CONFIDENCE.
Do I really have this courage? Or will I just dream of it, and watch from the sidelines of LIFE?
Will I just talk about it?
So I signed my name one morning on Spartanite. An endeavour from which like joining a gang, there was no return. An endeavour that was a DESTINY FACELIFT..BURNING AWAY dead and chthonic aspects of the old me.
I was scared. Terrified.
And like a rockhopper penguin on a rollercoaster, hopped along for the ride.
And TRUSTED, that to be a woman bold enough to pursue her life and dream.
To be shunned, hated, and, gossiped about…would be a new reality for me.
The reality of being MYSELF. A woman who didn’t need to pretend to be something else..something MILLIONS OF PEOPLE DO, TO APPEASE AND PLEASE OTHERS.
To be accepted by family, friends, social circles….
To be welcomed by polite society…
Eventually, you learn — those who judge you and let them damn well find out what you do, WILL.
Judge you, call you names, shun you, and mock you.
But the dream in your heart….
Whom you really are?
How long can you ignore that for?
Did you come to this world to live in some else’s shadow?
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Originally published at https://thespartanite.com on May 9, 2021.